A glimpse into my personal insanity

I'm a mom. I have two lovely boys. I've had to put one of them in a dayhome, he was there for almost a year. Then daycare and after that preschool. The one thing I understand more than anything. Separation anxiety. I'm not really talking about the what the child goes through. But what the parent goes through. The guilt that you feel for leaving your child. The frustration you feel for not being able to stay home and take care of them yourself. The anger that comes from realizing that your child may call someone else "mommy/daddy" or do something better for another person than you! But... And there's always a but... When your child has some level of separation anxiety as well? You should put your feeling aside and help them deal with theirs. They feel what you feel, they can sense your emotions on a level that we as adults have lost touch with. This does NOT mean hang out at the front door of the dayhome for a half hour chatting about your weekend...

I've decided that it's official. I'm no longer the person I once was. Yea. I know. That would've been the first thing that I realized when I had kids, right? Nah. I was too busy trying to NOT change that I didn't realize how much change comes naturally. I came home last night with the boys from picking up some stuff. Got them into bed, and went to sit down... oops, feed the dog... oh I should do the dishes... ah yes, the fish need to be fed... look the dog is restless, lets play outside for a bit... come back in... sheesh, I should really pick up these cans... I stopped. Oh my gosh. What the heck. I have some time to myself and instead of watching the PVR that has my shows recorded... Long Island Medium... or Untold Stories of the ER... or even Storage Wars... ok... that last one is a shameful secret... hehehe.. I was wandering around the house, picking up, tidying, putting away, taking care of things... When did this happen? I became... shudder... a grown...

I've been part of the weight watchers community for about... oh... 3 years now? Something like that. And don't get me wrong. I love weight watchers. I've lost 50lbs doing it! It's amazing. BUT... and there's always a but... some are bigger than others... hehehe... I've hit a plateau. We all do. Right? Right. But mine has lasted for over a year now. I need something to kick my system back into gear. I've tried a few things. PGX. Chromium Pincolate and White Kidney Bean extract. Etc etc etc. Nothing seemed to really work that well. I've scoured the Internet for something to help me. Something legitimate. Something that has been tried and tested. That people have had success rates with. REAL results. Then I started reading about garcinia cambogia extract. And of course there's the American version and the Canadian version. There's one big difference. HCA or hydroxycitric acid. It's not in the Canadian version of this supplement. So I t...