A glimpse into my personal insanity

There are few things in this world that I actually HATE ... I mean, loathe entirely and detest with all my being. Parenthood is amoung those. Specifically, the life decisions that I have to make on behalf of my child. I went, last night, for the parent/teacher meetings at  Jérôme's  school. His teacher is wonderful. Looks younger than she is, very soft spoken but commanding, clever and happy. She's truly in love with what she does and the children she helps. She has nothing bad to say about  Jérôme . Not. One. Thing. YAY!!! He's very compassionate. He's very smart. He's very clever. He's very cute. He's very helpful. I discuss with her the desire I have to keep him in Renfrew for Kindergarten next year, and then the following year place him in kindergarten AGAIN at his older brother's school. She agrees that it's a good idea, but ... But .... there's a but ? What could be but ?? If he were to simply GO to kindergarten at NDP (Xavier...

After I went to the doctor to discuss bariatric surgery, where I was surprised to find out that she was happy to give me a referral. Apparently my struggles have been... apparent. I started to talk to a friend of mine from school. She had the lap-band "installed" and had some info. Also she had spoken to lots of others that have had various surgeries and all through Alberta Health Services (AHS). She did not, she went to Mexico, because way back when she wanted it done, it would've been an 8 year wait. 8 YEARS... whoa. Turns out, it might be a long time for me as well. Maybe not THAT long, but it'll seem like forever. I found a website , a place where people can find surgeons and forums with an entire COMMUNITY of people that have had or are hoping to have surgery. Some have been waiting for months, some more than a year... some have been waiting for months to get the appointment that TELLS you that you can have surgery! That's not even waiti...