A glimpse into my personal insanity

Today is day 10 of being on Prozac. Today was NOT a good day. I woke up angry and tired and scared. The day passed by in a blink. I yelled... a lot. I cried... a lot. I laughed... at inappropriate times. What. The. Hell. So, I ended up on Dr. Google. What I failed to find out in my first two days of "research" was that Prozac can take between 2-6 weeks to feel the full effect of the anti-depressant. I naturally thought that being on one anti-depressant meant that when I started a different one, I would feel very little in the change. Holy shit was I wrong. I dug a little deeper and found both are SSRI's ( selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) they are not all that different. It just seem to be the concentrations. Cipralex is a bit more potent, when compared to Prozac (this is from a few sources), but as I stated in my last blog, Prozac has a LONGER half-life. meaning it stays in the system longer than Cipralex. Being more potent doesn't mean it w...

So... as most of you that actually read my blog... I'm on anti-depressants / anti-anxiety  meds and have been for a very long time now. This entry will be disorganized and babble off and on... sort of like most of my important thoughts! So bear with me... Going on 8 years. EIGHT years I've been on the same thing, the same dose and it's been great. I still have mood swings now and then, but they go away... at least until recently. When my oldest son was about 9mos young, I started having awful awful thoughts. At least, now I know they're awful thoughts. To me it was perfectly normal to wonder what would happen if I drove into that concrete barrier going 100km/h. I never wanted to hurt my son or my husband. I just didn't want to... BE anymore. It was hard to admit then, a little less hard to admit now. I share my store with many because I want people to know they're not the only ones. I've had people open up to me about their own depression struggles an...

Have you met my son? Yes? Good. Have you had a meal with him in attendance? Yes? Awesome. Have you noticed he's a "picky" eater? Yes. Superb. Have you realized I will alter/change/add/not add/break down and give him what he'll eat? Yes? Hmmm... Have you noticed this happens time and time again and seems futile and catering? Yes? Ah... Have you wondered why I don't have a more "assertive" approach to his eating habits? Yes? Don't worry, you're not the only one. You didn't answer yes to any of these questions? Read on anyway! I'm sure I'm not alone in this blog subject!! Here's a list of 11 reasons my son will NOT eat that. 1. It has sauce on it. No, we're not talking ketchup, we're talking tomato sauce, creamy sauce, broth type sauce, cheesy sauce, pesto sauce, mild/medium/hot sauce... basically, if it runs/flows/is a liquid when not frozen... then it's considered a sauce. He will not eat it if it has s...