A glimpse into my personal insanity

My eldest is Xavier. Most of you know this. He attends school at Notre Dame-de-la-Paix . French catholic school. It was the best choice at the time. Small classes, french education, CATHOLIC education... both of which I cannot teach him. I'm not religious, I know the basics, but it's not enough to instill faith. But ... there's always a but... this year it has been a struggle . Not really for his part. For the part of his teacher and us, it has been a struggle . They use a system called " moodle " it's supposed to be a messaging system, homework system, etc all in one. It sucks. Like it really REALLY sucks. If you don't go on there CONSTANTLY you'll miss things they're supposed to do. The teacher doesn't always update it when they're supposed to, and you can't really ask questions about anything unless you call/email her directly and then wait for a response... which rarely happen within a week. Classes have gotten bigger even though ...

That's right, an old Britney Spears song comes to mind... no... not Toxic... the Ooops I did it again... Nope, not because I've been luring men with my sexy dance in school girl's clothing... Sylvain is gone this week to Las Vegas, convention and Boot Camp for work. Yes, it actually is. He said that these boot camps happen in one of two places, Las Vegas or Europe. Ok, I'll miss out on Vegas, that's fine. So I'm doing the mom&dad thing while he's gone. I've got to run the dayhome, run the house, run the kids, etc etc... so I decided HEY! Why not do fix something that's been bothering me for a while? I can do it. Our shower floor is tile. Itty bitty tile. Which means itty bitty lines of grout. Grout that is cracking, molding and all around disgusting. I'm tired of trying to scrub it with bleach and all sorts of other cleaners that just plain don't work. So I googled "How to re-grout my shower floor". Oh yes... you see...

Have you ever been envious of someone? Coveted what they have? Wish you could be them (or part of them)? I have to admit. I'm guilty of this. There's nothing I want more than my life. I love my kids, my husband, heck... I even love my dayhome - well - most of the time. ;) However - sounds better than ' but ', right? - if I could have my life and just change my profession? I'd love that. It's easy. Just do it. RIGHT? Not so easy. Mortgage, kids, bills, etc... sometimes you can't do what you want and you have to settle for something that doesn't depress the hell out of you when you think about it. This profession? Not glamorous, no. Doesn't pay exceptionally well, no. Hell, it's very specified and not widely needed or known, and I can't really do it where I live. But I'd do it in a heartbeat if I could. I would love to have my sister's job. Yes. I'm envious of my sister and what she does. Ever since I was littl...

Yesterday my dear hubby had to go to the Festival des Sucres (or Maple Festival) to help do some activities with the Francophone scouts. Which meant that the boys and I were left to our own devices. Excellent. I spent the morning cleaning my room. Oh yes. I'm a big partay animal! The boys spent the morning playing quite nicely together. This is where you're thinking... "cleaning? your room ?? what, that took all of an hour ? hehehehe..." Nope. I never really held onto that lesson of keeping your room clean. My room is almost always a disaster. Things dumped here, stacked there, stuffed under that, draped on that... etc etc. So I gave it a good purge, dust, wipe, fold and vacuum. It's no awesome. :) No, you get no before and after pictures, it was THAT bad. But I'm rambling. I didn't start this entry to tell you how horrible my room is and how it took me like 4 hours to clean... ok, maybe I did... but I have OTHER motives too! I f...

A few weeks ago we went to the doctor. Nothing big, just a few questions that are not easily answered by Google. Darn it. Talk to the doctor about Jerome and his height... or lack of height. Is it genetics or diet? I can't do anything about genetics. I'm short, therefore my offspring are short. But his diet? If I have to sit on him and force feed him I will. Nah. Doctor said he's a typical picky eater that will get better with time. In the meantime, try smoothies with tofu or yogurt and change it up a bit. Talk to the doctor about Xavier's spots. He has white patches on his neck and chest/arms that are very white. I mean, whiter than we normally are white. And his birthmark? Yea. That's now developed black dots. What the hell? Google automatically says, melanoma. Uh huh. Of course. That's a good thing to do right?? Stupid me. Doctor says she's going to refer us to a dermatologist. Oh great. That'll take months to get in. Turns out not so muc...

I called the doctor the other day to find out if they had sent in my referral for the weight loss surgery. Turns out they did. That centre sent notification that they received the paper work and I am basically now in the queue to get on the waiting list. Yup. I'm on the waiting list to get on the waiting list. And know something? I'm not upset. Nope. I would've been about a week ago. Before Lola. Lola is our miniature dachshund. She has a spine injury of some sort. We're not too terribly sure WHAT the injury is. We won't know until Saturday, or possibly next Thursday. We were referred to a Canine Fitness centre. Yup. They have those. We were told they generally take dogs that are worse off, but they're hopeful about her signs that she still has feeling in her legs/tail/etc. You know what I did when I thought about Lola in pain and having to be put down (this was before I had seen her)? I cried. For almost three hours. I actually said out loud... I ...

There are few things in this world that I actually HATE ... I mean, loathe entirely and detest with all my being. Parenthood is amoung those. Specifically, the life decisions that I have to make on behalf of my child. I went, last night, for the parent/teacher meetings at  Jérôme's  school. His teacher is wonderful. Looks younger than she is, very soft spoken but commanding, clever and happy. She's truly in love with what she does and the children she helps. She has nothing bad to say about  Jérôme . Not. One. Thing. YAY!!! He's very compassionate. He's very smart. He's very clever. He's very cute. He's very helpful. I discuss with her the desire I have to keep him in Renfrew for Kindergarten next year, and then the following year place him in kindergarten AGAIN at his older brother's school. She agrees that it's a good idea, but ... But .... there's a but ? What could be but ?? If he were to simply GO to kindergarten at NDP (Xavier...