Can't get this Pity Party STARTED!!
Ever feel bad about something? Feel really bad, like you're down in the dumps and nothing's gonna make it better? That's how I felt this past Saturday. I stepped on that stupid scale and the numbers didn't change. Didn't go up, didn't go down. I was just plain frustrated.
So what did I do? I went grocery shopping, of course. But I didn't buy all the junk I wanted to buy, I bought more fruit and veggies, all the good stuff you're supposed to buy. I came home and started to cry. I got hugged by Sylvain and Xavier, with Xavier telling me that I'm still the most beautiful Maman in the world.
I wasn't done though. I felt the need to mourn my lack of losing weight. I started to doubt myself, doubt my own instincts. I started to wonder if all my 'better fitting clothes' were just my imagination and if maybe I was just trying to convince myself of what WASN'T happening. So that night I was just blah. Understand that I didn't over-eat, I didn't give up completely... I was just unhappy.
Do you have any idea how hard it is to be unhappy when you have such a large following of supporters? I'm not trying to brag or anything, but there are a LOT of you that are following my blog and my progress through this. It's a little creepy to be honest... ;) hehehe...
But I've posted a few times on my status, in the past few days of my discourse and frustration... mostly I'm trying to get somebody to say, "oh, poor Tanya" "you poor thing" "oh, we feel bad for you"
Instead I get lots of people telling me to stick with it, I can do it, keep trying, don't give up... nobody wanted to join in on my pity party. It was a futile effort, and apparently still is. Doesn't matter what I say or how I say it, nobody wants to join in on this party. I thought maybe promising punch and pie would seal the deal, but no such luck. Meh. I guess I better get over it and smarten up. Otherwise I'm going to end up with a whole lotta people at my doorstep telling me to GET WITH THE PROGRAM!!
So, yea. I'm done with the pity party. Thanks guys. Not sure anymore if I'm going to openly complain over facebook about my frustration with my workouts or weightloss, I might just need to go back and look at my wall history and all of the comments... that'd just get it out of my system!
I feel the love and encouragement always, thanks everyone! Much love back at you!
So what did I do? I went grocery shopping, of course. But I didn't buy all the junk I wanted to buy, I bought more fruit and veggies, all the good stuff you're supposed to buy. I came home and started to cry. I got hugged by Sylvain and Xavier, with Xavier telling me that I'm still the most beautiful Maman in the world.
I wasn't done though. I felt the need to mourn my lack of losing weight. I started to doubt myself, doubt my own instincts. I started to wonder if all my 'better fitting clothes' were just my imagination and if maybe I was just trying to convince myself of what WASN'T happening. So that night I was just blah. Understand that I didn't over-eat, I didn't give up completely... I was just unhappy.
Do you have any idea how hard it is to be unhappy when you have such a large following of supporters? I'm not trying to brag or anything, but there are a LOT of you that are following my blog and my progress through this. It's a little creepy to be honest... ;) hehehe...
But I've posted a few times on my status, in the past few days of my discourse and frustration... mostly I'm trying to get somebody to say, "oh, poor Tanya" "you poor thing" "oh, we feel bad for you"
Instead I get lots of people telling me to stick with it, I can do it, keep trying, don't give up... nobody wanted to join in on my pity party. It was a futile effort, and apparently still is. Doesn't matter what I say or how I say it, nobody wants to join in on this party. I thought maybe promising punch and pie would seal the deal, but no such luck. Meh. I guess I better get over it and smarten up. Otherwise I'm going to end up with a whole lotta people at my doorstep telling me to GET WITH THE PROGRAM!!
So, yea. I'm done with the pity party. Thanks guys. Not sure anymore if I'm going to openly complain over facebook about my frustration with my workouts or weightloss, I might just need to go back and look at my wall history and all of the comments... that'd just get it out of my system!
I feel the love and encouragement always, thanks everyone! Much love back at you!
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