The End isn't always THE End
After almost seven years I'm closing my dayhome. I've had the same girl with me for four of those years. None of my kids were with me less than a year.
It's amazing how attached you get to other peoples children.
Finding the courage to tell the parents I was closing was the most difficult thing I've ever ever had to do. I know it won't be the last difficult thing, and I know that there will be moments in my life that will not even compare to this.
For now, this is my life.
I cry at the thought of losing these kids. I smile at the thought of working outside my home again.
I get upset when I think of all the things I'm going to miss with this. I laugh at the thought of getting my art "studio" back.
I am conflicted emotionally. My husband, my boys, they've got my back. They're supportive and encouraging. I've got wonderful family and friends to help me through this.
It is a selfish thing of me to feel this way, however, I need to feel it. It's the closure I need.
One chapter of my life is ending, and another one will begin.
Something I've learned over my time as a Dayhome Provider? Here's a list:
1) when you think you've used enough wipes, use two more.
2) purchase the disinfectant wipes at Costco, they're strong and last longer.
3) child proof locks are NOT child proof.
4) never underestimate a child's ability to improve your emotional state
5) opposite of #4
6) always keep extra clothes/shoes/jackets on hand, this is the one time being a pack rat is handy
7) germs, OMG the germs!!
8) purchasing a really really good carpet cleaner is a good investment
9) dogs and kids are great together, until one of them bites
10) children are amazing at any age.
I'm sure there'll be more lists to come. That's what I've got for now in my rambling emotional brain!
Good luck with the future posts and deciphering them!
It's amazing how attached you get to other peoples children.
Finding the courage to tell the parents I was closing was the most difficult thing I've ever ever had to do. I know it won't be the last difficult thing, and I know that there will be moments in my life that will not even compare to this.
For now, this is my life.
I cry at the thought of losing these kids. I smile at the thought of working outside my home again.
I get upset when I think of all the things I'm going to miss with this. I laugh at the thought of getting my art "studio" back.
I am conflicted emotionally. My husband, my boys, they've got my back. They're supportive and encouraging. I've got wonderful family and friends to help me through this.
It is a selfish thing of me to feel this way, however, I need to feel it. It's the closure I need.
One chapter of my life is ending, and another one will begin.
Something I've learned over my time as a Dayhome Provider? Here's a list:
1) when you think you've used enough wipes, use two more.
2) purchase the disinfectant wipes at Costco, they're strong and last longer.
3) child proof locks are NOT child proof.
4) never underestimate a child's ability to improve your emotional state
5) opposite of #4
6) always keep extra clothes/shoes/jackets on hand, this is the one time being a pack rat is handy
7) germs, OMG the germs!!
8) purchasing a really really good carpet cleaner is a good investment
9) dogs and kids are great together, until one of them bites
10) children are amazing at any age.
I'm sure there'll be more lists to come. That's what I've got for now in my rambling emotional brain!
Good luck with the future posts and deciphering them!
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